In a week and or two. I contacted Bellevue PD on Thursday to find out how they were going with the search, and what kind of time frame they were looking at for hiring. Turns out they were making final decisions yesterday. Letters will be mailed out, starting tomorrow, letting candidates know if they are invited for an interview or if their applications are being tabled. It goes without saying, I’m really hoping my letter contains an interview date. As far as I know, none of my references have been contacted, which I’ve found to be a cause to worry. I can only hope they wait to do the background checks until after interviews.
I have to admit, I’m really nervous. “What if” has been plaguing me the last two weeks. If this doesn’t pan out on this try, I don’t have a lot of back-up plan in my pocket. I love what I’m doing now, but I don’t think it’s fiscally viable in the long term. I’m so sure that this is what God has for me. If my letter doesn’t have awesomeness in it, what does that mean? Does it mean I just completely read the situation wrong? Does it simply mean (even more) waiting? Will my faith be enough for such a let down? I can only hope it will be.
Really, everything would be much easier if it had good news. Then I get to start stressing about the interview, etc. The background check shouldn’t be a problem. I’ve been a good boy, and anyone they talk to should be able to back that up fairly easily. I don’t have any embarrassing or horrible stuff on the Internet that should cause anyone any concern. My Myspace page doesn’t tell anyone anything other than that I love awesome music. Oh well, that’s a bridge we’ll have to cross when we come to it.
November 17th, 2008 at 1:34 pm
Given our circumstances, it is hard not to play the “what if?” game. At this point, we have nothing but our faith to stand upon. We have seen God’s hand in our marriage many times in 7 years and we can’t forget those times. I KNOW things are difficult right now, but if the years between Kati and Ava taught us anything, it is this – God sees the bigger picture. All time is in his hands and we have to be patient and see his goodness. No matter what happens, how many “what if’s” come across your mind, know that I am always right beside. I love you.
Proverbs 3
Trusting in the Lord
1 My child,[a] never forget the things I have taught you.
Store my commands in your heart.
2 If you do this, you will live many years,
and your life will be satisfying.
3 Never let loyalty and kindness leave you!
Tie them around your neck as a reminder.
Write them deep within your heart.
4 Then you will find favor with both God and people,
and you will earn a good reputation.
5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart;
do not depend on your own understanding.
6 Seek his will in all you do,
and he will show you which path to take.
7 Don’t be impressed with your own wisdom.
Instead, fear the Lord and turn away from evil.
8 Then you will have healing for your body
and strength for your bones.
9 Honor the Lord with your wealth
and with the best part of everything you produce.
10 Then he will fill your barns with grain,
and your vats will overflow with good wine.
11 My child, don’t reject the Lord’s discipline,
and don’t be upset when he corrects you.
12 For the Lord corrects those he loves,
just as a father corrects a child in whom he delights.[b]
13 Joyful is the person who finds wisdom,
the one who gains understanding.
14 For wisdom is more profitable than silver,
and her wages are better than gold.
15 Wisdom is more precious than rubies;
nothing you desire can compare with her.
16 She offers you long life in her right hand,
and riches and honor in her left.
17 She will guide you down delightful paths;
all her ways are satisfying.
18 Wisdom is a tree of life to those who embrace her;
happy are those who hold her tightly.
19 By wisdom the Lord founded the earth;
by understanding he created the heavens.
20 By his knowledge the deep fountains of the earth burst forth,
and the dew settles beneath the night sky.
21 My child, don’t lose sight of common sense and discernment.
Hang on to them,
22 for they will refresh your soul.
They are like jewels on a necklace.
23 They keep you safe on your way,
and your feet will not stumble.
24 You can go to bed without fear;
you will lie down and sleep soundly.
25 You need not be afraid of sudden disaster
or the destruction that comes upon the wicked,
26 for the Lord is your security.
He will keep your foot from being caught in a trap.
27 Do not withhold good from those who deserve it
when it’s in your power to help them.
28 If you can help your neighbor now, don’t say,
“Come back tomorrow, and then I’ll help you.”
29 Don’t plot harm against your neighbor,
for those who live nearby trust you.
30 Don’t pick a fight without reason,
when no one has done you harm.
31 Don’t envy violent people
or copy their ways.
32 Such wicked people are detestable to the Lord,
but he offers his friendship to the godly.
33 The Lord curses the house of the wicked,
but he blesses the home of the upright.
34 The Lord mocks the mockers
but is gracious to the humble.[c]
35 The wise inherit honor,
but fools are put to shame!