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1. I’m somewhat of a grammar, spelling, & pronunciation nazi. Today’s pet peeve: sell & sale. They aren’t the same word. They do not sound the same. They do not rhyme. If they rhyme when you say them, then:

2. “Lord, search my heart,
create in me something clean.
You see flowers in these weeds. ” – Reese Roper

I hope He does. My life’s rather weedy right now. I’m not in a very good place, spiritually, and I don’t know why. It’s like looking out a tinted window. I can see the sun, but can’t really feel the warmth. This will require some action before I drift any further towards apathy.

3. Ireland is awesome. They are currently the only country with the gonads to stand up to the European Union’s borg-like assimilation mission.

Ireland rejects Treaty of Lisbon

“The Irish electorate has rejected the European Union’s Treaty of Lisbon. Irish television says 54 percent voted against and 46 percent for the treaty in Thursday’s referendum. Ireland was the only EU country to hold a vote* on the issue.”

That’s right, they let the people vote on an issue that directly affects their lives.

“Irish Prime Minister Brian Cowan did his best to persuade people to vote in favour of the treaty which was designed to strengthen the EU and streamline its institutions. However, opponents said it would give too much power to Brussels and could affect Ireland’s neutrality and abortion laws.

The ‘no’ vote signals crisis in the EU as the treaty can only implemented if it is ratified be all 27 member states. It has already been ratified in 18 countries.”

Good for you, Ireland.


To finish it off, how about some Jewish reggae/rap? I agree, mother. That’s a fantastic idea. Here’s some music. With a video. Matisyahu is just plain dope. His rhymes are tight, and the lyrics are beautiful poetry.

I apologize for the ringtone spam at the bottom of the video. That’s the only copy I could find that allowed embedding.

* The word plebiscite has been changed to “vote” for simplicity’s sake.

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This is going to be long, but hopefully it will encourage someone and be worth the read.

There are many times in life where we are presented with a chance to further our knowledge of the nature of God and His role in our lives. Recognizing these moments, listening to what the Spirit has to say about them, and clinging to it as truth can sometimes be difficult (especially if it’s a lesson we don’t necessarily want to hear.) It’s oh so important, however.

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It’s true. I love The Wedding. Even with the new singer. (I think). I love God too. This is a wonderful combination of things that I love.

We drive all day and drive all night; you’re a part of this fight.
Don’t let that sleeping dog lie, boy
Cause everywhere we go they want more than what the world can offer.
Bring it back one more time.
I can’t keep quiet the things that I gotta say.

They bring them in on stretchers and when they leave they’re walking out.
That’s what our God’s about. OK?

We’re making strides we’re doing fine, we’re just starting to climb.
You better get yourself in line.
Cause we don’t have time we’re moving forward and we’ll never stop.
So make up your mind you’re either with us son or you’re not.

They bring them in on stretchers and when they leave they’re walking out.
That’s what our God’s about. OK?

Move over.
Move over; cause you’re starting to drag me down.
And I won’t let anything stop me now.
Take your place here with me.
You know me there is nothing that I won’t do

If you would prefer to hear the studio version, and see it played in Guitar Hero, enjoy:

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I have seen the light.

Posted by: mose

Posted in: Higher callings, Life

It is with deep sadness that I must announce that is closing forever. My latest rant on technology was enlightening. God has revealed to me the wisdom of the Mennonites.

I will no longer update this abomination. Instead, I have chosen to forsake all technology. My computer will be demolished and all televisions, DVD players, and other electronic items will be donated or sold.

Since I am employed by a company specializing in the use of online tools, I will forfeit my employment and seek out a community of like-minded families. I know this will be a rough transition period, especially for my wife. I know that, in the long run, this is best for my family, the world, and God’s Kingdom.

I look forward to my new life of butter churning and buggy driving. Hopefully, it won’t be too hard to learn German.

God bless,


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It’s about time for an update. I’m getting in a bad habit of not updating for a while, then posting enumerated lists. Oh well. You’ll have to live with it.

1. Life as a walking dichotomy is rough. You know the right thing and the right way, but sometimes can’t bring yourself to do it. You find yourself walking down a path you know is leading nowhere, but feel powerless to change it. This, if unchecked, eventually leads to regret and self-loathing, and withdrawal, which makes it easier to keep going down that wrong path in a vicious downward spiral.

“I am my own worst enemy.
I sink my teeth into the hand that feeds.
I curse and praise in the same breath.
Which man in the mirror is the one that’s left?” – The Wedding

Which one is it? Am I a beacon of salt and light? Or am I grumpy, irritable, sad excuse of an ambassador? I’m afraid I know the answer. If you know me, you probably know it too.

2. In the spirit of the air conditioning debacle, we have been battling the furnace for months now. Flame sensors, oxygen sensors, climate control computers, etc. All have gone bad. Up until this point, they’ve been “fixable”, but not enough to warrant a new furnace under our home warranty. Well, it went out again last night, and we called the home warranty people again. They gave us the now too familiar number of AA American Heating & Air. (This company is highly recommended.) They paged a poor technician to roll out to our house in the evening. Now, this poor guy has been out to look at the furnace more than half a dozen times. Each time it’s something “minor” but I can’t have a one month old baby in a house with no heat when it’s -15 outside. He’s a good guy and a good sport about it, though. Luckily, this thing has finally kicked the bucket. It’s running again, but there’s a real problem causing the repeated malfunctions that will require us to get a new furnace, covered under the warranty. At most, we’ll have to find $300-$600 out of savings somewhere. Way better than the $5,000 we went into debt in the old house replacing the furnace/ac. When he told us this great news, I was expecting to have to wait a month or two to get it in and was pleasantly shocked when he said he might be able to have it installed Friday (that’s tomorrow!).

3. Snyder of Hanover’s Buffalo Pretzel Pieces are FANTASTIC.

4. I’ve been growing out a full beard for about a week. It looks fairly spectacular so far. We’ll see how far along it can get before the boss forces me to shave.

Yeah, so that’s all I got for now. :\

*Edit* 1/28/08 – I just noticed that I accidentally used “all I got” instead of “all I’ve got”. It’s incorrect, but it sounds straight hip-hop, so I’m gonsta havesta go ahead and leave it that way.


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Posted by: mose

Posted in: Higher callings, Life

So, a lot has happened since the last update. Let’s run through them, shall we?

#1. Peace out

So long, Bill. It’s been a rough ride, and I wish you the best. (Just not in my state.) Who, then, shall lead my beloved Huskers onto the field of glory? Even though Pelini was only here a year, you got the sense that he “got” the tradition, and how serious we, the fans, take Nebraska football. We have high standards. More importantly, he seemed passionate about the game and about our kids. Callahan seemed like an Offensive coordinator who belonged in a press box; detached from the game and not caring about the outcome. Being the worst team in the league didn’t seem to bother him. This must have trickled down to the guys on the field, because that’s exactly how they played under him. There was no drive, no intensity. They looked like every game was a scrimmage and they didn’t care one way or another. Whether the new coach has been with us in the past, or is a newcomer, they need to have a sense of who we are. We are a national powerhouse at heart. Anything less is unacceptable. Bo gets that I think, and he gets my vote. Turner Gill seems a good choice, but I think I’d like to see him with a little more experience.

#2. I’ve really lost all love for my work. I find no joy in it. Compensation isn’t an issue. I’d love to be paid more (and honestly believe I should); however, that’s not the issue here. I don’t believe in what I do, or the people for whom I do it. I’m stuck in this position through the middle of next year, in all likelihood. I’ll keep trying to get out; but, a series of dampers has been implemented to keep everyone where they are for the short-term future. Can I stay that long without completely burning out? Have I already pushed past that point? I don’t know.


#3. I didn’t get the job I interviewed for two weeks ago. I had a feeling it was coming, particularly since they were supposed to have a decision by last Friday. Still, as much as I loathe my current position, I cannot find cause to curse this development. The Lord gives and the Lord takes away. Blessed be the name of the Lord. I put this in His hands before the interview and see no reason to snatch it back just because things didn’t go as I wished them to. If it is not His will for me to move on at this point, I have no recourse but to swallow my pride, and surrender myself to be governed by His will and provision. He has plans for me, yet.

I just wish I knew what they were…

#4. Heroes is awesome.

#5. It’s not June, but call your father and thank him anyway. I spent a few hours this weekend putting up Christmas lights for Kati. She didn’t specifically ask me to, but I know she loves them and it would make her happy. The problem is I’ve got a moderate fear of heights. Not enough to make me wet my pants on a tall building, but enough to make me real nervous at the top of a tall ladder; nervous enough to make a rather painful mistake. But I climbed up that ladder a few dozen times, performing precision roof surgery. Why? Because I love my kid. At one point I looked down to the ground (never a good idea, btw) and decided I should probably call dad and thank him for all of the stupid things he did to make my sister and I happy when we growing up. I’ll have to remember to do that tonight. You should too.

That is all.

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It’s a doozy….

Posted by: mose

Posted in: Higher callings, Life, Rantings, Whining

Settle down folks. I have no idea what this entry will be about; but, I have a feeling it will be long-winded.

I’m going to go away and have a cup of coffee so I can contemplate this entry.


Okay, so, let’s start of with work. To quote a cow in an obscure Far Side cartoon, “Wendell, I’m not content.” The job is great. It’s an awesome position for the right person. ::interjection:: Something crappy just happened, more on that later ::/interjection:: I have a great job. It’s just not me.

My job right now involves a lot of coddling hyper pushy, type A, aggressive salespeople. My natural personality is laid back, calm (by default), and courteous; the type of people that hyper-pushy, type A, aggressive salespeople tend to push over and pummel. Theoretically, they should love pushing me around. Here’s the problem: I spent all my childhood and teenage years getting pushed around, mocked, ridiculed, second-guessed, etc, etc, etc. At some point in the past (I wish I could remember exactly when) I decided I wasn’t going to take it anymore. I’m a (somewhat) successful adult with a beautiful wife, 1.77 wonderful children, and nice house. I’m an adult. I’ve paid my dues, and I refuse to be blatantly disrespected by someone who is supposedly my colleague. Can you smell the conflict? Don’t get me wrong, a lot of the people I work with a great guys. There are some, however, that tend to behave in a way that doesn’t mesh with how I operate. I enjoy my job to a degree; but, there are times during the day (usually each day) that I get the feeling that this just isn’t what I’m supposed to be doing.

Enter internal conflict. Is it me? Is my indignation justified, or am I allowing pride to affect my judgment? Was this job intended for me as a temporary position and a stepping stone to greater things, or has God intended me to stay here a while and learn something here before moving on?

Enter professional conflict. If I move on now, will it be viewed as bailing on a position I “couldn’t handle”, or simply moving on as people tend to do after a time. I don’t want to be seen as the guy who couldn’t hack it. I’m good at what I do. I just don’t get any satisfaction out of catering to, in my mind, unreasonable people making unreasonable requests with a sense of entitlement that I’m to do whatever they ask without question.

Now, to get back to the side note earlier about something crappy occurring. I had applied for a great job in another department. It suits me and I believe I suit it quite well, also. I get a call the day after I apply, asking if I have a certain license. I let them know that I don’t, but that I’m happy to get it. It’s usual protocol. The job listings usually say something like, “Must have license X or ability to obtain within X months.” Apparently there’s no “ability to obtain” in this case. I’ve asked repeatedly to get this license; but, they won’t let me have it unless I have a job that needs it. I can’t get a job that needs it unless I have it. I can’t have it unless I have a job that needs it. Infuriating? Darn tootin.

Okay, enough work. What else can I talk about? Let’s take it upstairs, if you catch my drift. My family go to a really awesome church. The people are great, the atmosphere is awesome, and Pastor Jay is great. The question, then, is why do I feel so disconnected? I don’t have any real friends there (or elsewhere for that matter [which is a gripe for another time {holy uber-subphrases, Batman!}]). I have friendly acquaintances, but no one I would call up and say, “Hey, you wanna hang out?” The people are nice, but there’s no one my wife or I really click with. It feels, at least to me, like everyone’s happy to have us there, but that no one would necessarily care if we just stopped showing up. I’m sure that’s not the case; but, that’s how it feels. Then, there’s issues with worship, but that also is a story for another day.

Just to lighten the tone of this post, here’s a rather lousyDethsaurus picture of Nathan Explosion riding a Triceratops.

That’s all I got.

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Look up once in a while…

Posted by: mose

Posted in: Higher callings

Every so often, God takes me by surprise. I set out for my nightly run last night and decided to go a new way on a whim. Instead of sticking to the neighborhood, I cut down half a block and went down the back road that runs behind my neighborhood. (This is going somewhere, I promise.) There’s no street lights and it’s a fairly steep hill on either side. All I can do is keep looking the 4-5′ in front of me that I can see and hope for there to be no cracks/rocks/errant skateboards. I barely saw the mud patch in time to prepare for it. I was going at a decent clip and there was no way I was going to be able to stop, but I was able to adjust for it and not get caught off guard. I scrape the mud off the best I can and keep going. I get past the bottom of the hill and go another half block or so before I decide to turn around and head back home. I don’t want to tackle the upside of the hill with slick shoes, so I scrape them off some more and bend down to tighten the laces on one of them. When I get up, something catches my eye. The sky is lit up in a spectacular show. Where I’ve stopped is just on the other side of a golf course and the course is elevated about 16′ above the sidewalk is, completely obscuring the northern horizon. With no street lights, and the light pollution from the north removed, the sky is completely opened up to me. I can see all the constellations, and even the faint band of the Milky Way streaking right over my head. God was speaking to me through his Creation. He was saying, “STOP! Hold up a second. Stop running every second of the day and look around. Look at what I made for you.” He’s right. I need to relax once in a while and quit rushing along head first all the time and enjoy the blessings He’s given to me.

It’s humbling, yet amazing, to know God loves me so much, he’d tap me on the shoulder late at night on a dark road just to hang out with me for a second.

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And then there was MLMP

Posted by: mose

Posted in: Higher callings, Rock

Boy, am I lousy at coming up with titles for these posts. :\

Anyway, updates are good. Here are some. Recording is starting to come together some. See Here. It’s still really rough and only about half the song, but you get the idea of where I’m going with it. (There’s still a surprise or two coming) After I get Thasp to mix it with hotsaus, I will be crowned the king of rock’n’roll.

In about an hour, we’ll find out if we’re having a boy or girl. Is the suspense killing you?

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Life is rough.

Posted by: mose

Posted in: Higher callings, Life, Rantings, Rock, Whining

I had to create a new category for this one: whining.

Things just kind of suck right now.Not as bad as before, but enough to ruin the heck out of a Friday.

Came home Wednesday to a house that was 87 degrees on the inside. Yep, our air conditioner is dying. After getting two irate phone calls from a hot pregnant woman, the home warranty people finally authorized an after hours call. The technician who looked at it pronounced the inside unit in serious condition and administered last rites to the outside unit. Keep in mind, we’ve lived there two months. A new AC’s going to run $2,000. We don’t have $200, let alone $2,000. We’re trying to work with the warranty company to get it through their heads that it broke after we bought it and they should cover it, but I’m not holding my breath.

The weight loss campaign is going nowhere. I’m going to be fat forever. I have no energy to exercise. I’m eating okay but not losing anything at all. I’m not sleeping well. I’m starting to have “head problems” again, but I’m afraid to tell my wife. She has enough things to worry about.

Recording is going rough. I’m making progress, but it’s still lousy. Maybe I’m just a crappy musician.

I hate pushy type A salespeople. Especially if they sound like food.

I’d say my prayers are bouncing off the ceiling, if I was praying.

I’m about 14 colors of messed up right now.

I better get my crap together, though.

After all, I’ve got a new air conditioner to buy.

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